Unbelievably ridiculous

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Earlier this morning, I was browsing for new updates on Heath Ledger’s death and I found something shocking. I found this headline: “Westboro Baptist Church (WBC) is to protest on Heath’s funeral”.

Here’s what they say about our good guy’s death:

"Yes. WBC will picket this pervert’s funeral, in religious protest and warning: “Be not deceived; God is not mocked.” Gal. 6:7. Heath Ledger thought it was great fun defying God Almighty and His plain word; to wit: God Hates Fags! & Fag-Enablers! Ergo, God hates the sordid, tacky bucket of slime seasoned with vomit known as ‘Brokeback Mountain’ - and He hates all persons having anything whatsoever to do with it.
Heath Ledger is now in Hell, and has begun serving his eternal sentence there - beside which, nothing else about Heath Ledger is relevant or consequential."

I don’t know whether it’s real or someone made that up. Still, it is so cruel of them to say such things, and more importantly, just because Heath nicely played a role as a gay cowboy. I mean, who are they to judge someone they didn’t know –and even WORSE- WHO ARE THEY TO THINK THEY HAVE ALL THE RIGHTS TO SAY SOMEONE DESERVES HELL??!!

“God hate fags!” à Who are they to even dare to say things on behalf of God?
I guess they really think they’re God. Or maybe they’re trying to make God think what they think and do what they do. They were so heartless and mean to go above and beyond disrespecting the deceased.

Being Christian is not making you the most perfect creature in the whole universe. It doesn’t give you the rights to judge people. I am Christian and it doesn’t make me perfect. In fact, I have to admit there are people out there that are way better that me.

I’m not saying that I completely and perfectly understand God & Christianity, but I guess anybody could tell that WBC people obviously don’t understand that at all.

Nobody understands something better that its creator. Nobody understands others like God understands us, for He is our Creator. That’s why, I’ve learn to think before I speak, to see inside myself before bad judging words slip through my lips. Am I better then others? Or maybe I’m just one of them…



“… Father, forgive them for they know not what they do.” (Luke 23 :34)

Heath Ledger (28), R.I.P

Yesterday, Hollywood has lost one of its good guys. Heath Ledger, the kind-hearted and down-to-earth actor, was found dead in his apartment’s bedroom around 3 PM.

The police said there’s no obvious indication of suicide evident in this case. They found sleeping pills near his body, but yet no exact cause of death is published until this very second. An autopsy is reportedly being performed today.

Ledger took on a character as the Joker in his (happen to be) last performance. He told The New York Times that he “stressed out a little too much” during this film, and had trouble sleeping while portraying the Joker, whom he called a “psychopathic, mass-murdering, schizophrenic clown with zero empathy.”

“Last week I probably slept an average of two hours a night,” Ledger told the newspaper. “I couldn’t stop thinking. My body was exhausted, and my mind was still going.” He said he took two Ambien pills, which only worked for an hour, the paper said.

We really never know when our time comes. For some people it may seem too soon while for some other it may never seem to come.

It is my true hope that he is resting in peace now. My deepest condolence to his family, especially to Matilda, his 2 years old daughter from his ex-fiancé, Michelle Williams.

woke up on the wrong side of the bed

I guess I’ve forgotten how hard it is to get out of my comfort zone and start something new for the sake of my so-called brighter future. To stay forever inside the zone is the last thing I want for myself. But sometimes I feel I just can’t stand the pain of struggling to fit myself into the new mold.

And just now, in the middle of the tough process, I looked back and my “comfy” past seemed to pull me back and spellbind me, gently persuade me to end the fight.

I know I have to stay on remolding myself. But I feel so insecure. I want to stay in my used-to-be-happy life without have to think about my future whatsoever.

Just like the quote says, I want to work like I don’t need money. Want to dance like no one sees me. Want to sing like no one hears me. Want to love like I’ve never been hurt. Most of all, I want to love anybody I want to love without have to think about anything else, especially the future. Coz that’s what makes me live like this was Heaven on Earth, at least for this very moment…

But then, I realize that “now” will soon be “yesterday” and eventually I’ll be in the “future”.

*sigh*

All I really need is a determination.

old picts, new picts

Hey! First of all, HAPPY NEW YEAR GUYS!!

Simon created this new skin for my blog and I just knew it last night when we unintentionally talk about our blogs. Isn't it ridiculous? Haha! He changed my blog's skin couple of months ago and I totally didn't know till last night.. Anyways, THANKS MONCE! I like the color and everything!

Lots of things have happened in my life over the last 3 months. Hmmm.. I didn't even remember each of them anymore... I guess I'll try to recall while posting these old pictures and some latest ones..

Here you go...

Left to Right : Neza - Nezi - Yoce - Yuli. I've been hanging out with them lately. Neza - Nezi are Kelly's younger sisters, and YUP! They're twins! Someone's missing in the pict actually. Abol!! I can't seem to find a picture of him. They're younger, but they're definitely fun to go out with.

These pictures are taken on the 20th of November. It was Lexus' big night. We were having a Grang launching at The Dharmawangsa. I met lots of filthy rich ppl and had fun that night. By fun I mean drank lots of wine and chocolate martini and got super tipsy. But the hardest part was when I had to pretend that I was sobber in front of my brother in law. Haha!!

Last Saturday we had another wedding in the family, it's my cousin's. That was the first time we wore kebaya to a family wedding party, and we chose purple to be the color of the day. I say we looked gorgeous!! BTW, CONGRATS to Cie Nana & Ko Budi!

I got myself a new Nintendo DS Lite last week. I was accompanying my sister to Mangga Dua to get a service for her DS. As always, she "shopping hypnotized" me and when I realized, I have paid for it and she was congratulating me on my new DS Lite. *sigh*

Sometimes it felt so hard to have a super "influencing" sister. It's not that I'm not enjoying my DS, but I'm a little bit sad when I see the decreasing figures on my saving account.

That's okay!! I love the metallic rose color and the matching cover, though!

*gasp*

Am I becoming XiaXue?!! Am I a pink freak now?! Noo!! Metallic rose was the new color and that was the reason I chose it. I'm not a pink freak. Yes!! I'M NOT A PINK FREAK!!

*exhaling*

I better focus on getting all the gold medals on Cooking Mama. Nyahaha!!

These are my latest picts. Last night I went out with Lissa, Debby, Simon, and 2 of Lissa's friend. Lissa wanted to hook me up with the guy on the left pict. But as usual, I think the girls talked too much and we ended up leaving the guys unattended. Haha!

I miss blogging and I wish I have more time to blog in the near future. *crossing my fingers*

I'm hoping to sign in to blogger and give you guys more updates soon!